Missing something ~

after mum's gone. seems like life's diff. cant really say wats going on but i jus have the feeling of something missing out in my life.

They say good people always die earlier. guess my mum's a good person. hope she can find peace within the kingdom of God.

xmas coming. merry xmas to all.

Mum's with God now ~

1625, the time when God sent his angels to fetch my mum. May peace and glory be with her.

Friends and relative, the location for the wake is at Circuit Road blk 64a. last day is sat. Please do make some time here.

House moving

Moved my house last week and didnt got my connection =[

But at last ! internet !! these some photos...

jus a small room but i'm still happy !!!

hope i can increase my books collections. =]

Model Kid ~

My brother was ask to model for Toni and Guy's graduation show last sat !!!

here's some picture =]

More of Ken Follett ~

After i finished the book, i felt that i must get more of his work. Its was fantastic to see someone who wrote the book somehow more to the way i think. I can only say he's a wonderful author.

Currently reading his work, " The Pillars Of The Earth."

World without End ~

The book i got from my birthday as a present was such a great book !! i had no idea his books was such a masterpiece. I strongly recommend this book "World Without End" by Ken follett to serious readers.




PS: the book has touched on mature topics so i dun really recommend it to readers under 18. Nonetheless a warning to readers, you wont be able to put it down once you started it.

Thanks for coming !! ~

Thanks to all those who came for my bbq !! i was happy to see all of u again =]

heres some pictures of the presents i got from them =D

thanks you everyone !!

Back from Camping trip ~

some of u might wonder y i didnt online for the whole week. well i went camping wif my colleagues. saw some beautiful views there. sorted out alot of things while i'm away from civilisation, from the dusty city and polluted town.

i might not look like one but i definately enjoy taking pictures and reading books. here are some of the pictures i took on my trips..

And theres more !! we were attacked by .....

Lappy's out to town ~

sianz nth to do meet wei neng town.

his com so funny de.. cant log in to wifi haha.

guess where i'm at ? if u can guess i'll give u a hug ^^ haha

Virtual reality ~

sometimes i wish i could become a char in a manga. or maybe i was drawn into a manga w/o me knowing. where ppl would plan my life and give me a good happy ending. where the char have dreams and hopes of the world.

dreams. wats my dream? i dun know. its been a while since i can dream of anything. wif u inside my mind, there isnt any room for anything esle. i jus cant stop thinking of u.

to manga fans, if u happen to have read "ichigo 100%" b4 plz do drop me a msg. i need recommendations on any other manga thats into romance, dreams and hopes like this series do.

Note: i dun read ichigo 100 for their pictures. i would prefer real life photos then those. its jus the storyline that moved me.

Books, are dreams in written forms of fantasy ~

Yesterday i finally found the 2nd book in this world that made my tears fall.

wat u mean i dun read. of cos i do. lawl.

highly recommending this book if ur a book reader like me.(sry they dun contain pictures)

"The 5 people you meet in heaven" by MitchAlbom, Author of the international bestseller - "tuesday with morrie"

give it a try.

Bring me musics ~

been listening to simple plan these days. they really rox dun they?

great band anyway.

found a online shopping site for streetwears.

take a look =p

www.onlineninja-van.blogspot.com

Teach me, wat can i do ~

here at tekong, got nth to do. so bored. went to frenster to check on stuff. emo came and stayed.

saw her updated her profile. saw her comments.she's so popular, i'm jus a toad lusting for the swan. funny feeling came over me. was it jealous? was it inferiority? was it sadness? or was it bitterness from the fact, i had failed to win her heart. i feel so alone.

I, am not good looking, am not fit, not tall either. around my frens i joke around to create happiness for them. a fool i was. for frens i can do anyting. how stupid i am. i may look happy always, but when emo took over me, i cant do anything. weak. here i am talking to a computer, childish.

if, there is anyone out there, who can end my misery. please, let me know. i pay any price. to forget her, or to leave this world before someone does.




I.cant.take.it.any.more. this.world.will.definately.do.better.without.me.

Going overseas ~

Guess where am i going ? =D

yeah its really oversea and its call tekong -.-

going till 26 oct so guess no blogging till then.. fuck up life...

Busy man on the run ~

just noticed that i have been blogging lesser then usual these weeks, all beco i'm jus getting rdy to go tekong for training. bored man.. oh yeah my birthday is coming !! ^^

Holiday mood ~

sianz.. after that long week of mc i am now proned to holiday mood liao.. dun feel like working sia.. wed holiday again sianz... LOL

Stop pullling my *leg* ~

Twisted my rite leg on tues, wah.. fucking pain sia... but i still tahan.. if i know i dun tahan liao... in the end.. the leg become swollen. bo pian.. must go medical centre.. then the mo use ambulance send me to tan tock seng for x-ray !!! lucky no fractures haha... mo give 2 week excuse lower limb while tan tock seng give me 4 days mc !! HOME BOUND FOR NOW !!!!

SUPER BORED.... !!!!

Busy Week ~

Heres a update on the past one week lol... didnt really have time to do it.

had a bbq at NSRCC by my company on tues, and another bbq in camp on thurdays haha... eat like fuck

sat went to find wei kang to play pool wif wei neng and tian shi.. saw wei qiang on the way to cine while one bus !!! LUCKY !! lol... oh got 2 more girl also... but one of them i dunno the name >.<

cb wei kang play 2 hr pool give $4 !!! WTF !!! next time dun let him play liao ....

Tired.. ~

for the past few days i been feeling very tired... as in my life is so tired of continuing. things hasnt been going smoothly and i dun really know when will i break down.

God, if u can read this. Please lead me to my path, and take me wif you.

weekend finally ~

home at last !! and my phone is back !! everythings seems good !! at least seems to me so ~ been pondering wat shld i do for my birthday since its coming in like, 2 months? other then my aunt booked a chalet for me ( dunno true anot >.< ) , and all my frens so busy one... dunno got ppl come anot..

wah.. i updated my ipod touch and now it can gaming !!! LOL super fun wif its retro games sia... haha..

hmm today fri yet no go out.. super sianz... better go train my game lvl liao.. cos gonna loan my laptop to someone ^^

Bad Phone Day ~

Wah sian zz my phone cannot read my sim card !!! dunno is phone spoilt or my card spoilt.. cannot funny leh.. both are not even 6 months old , cant spoilt that fast rite?? zzz WAH LAO EH !!!

Happy birthday to wei kang !! ~

sat was kang's bdae and he treat us food !!! went to eat at hongkong cafe at cine, then we went to play pool and OMG, we play till $54 !!!! lol supr long sia... actually not long one... but we got a retard hand player then in the end she needs 1hr to play one game !!!! hahaha...

HAPPY BDAE TO U AGAIN WEI KANG !!

Pissed off ~

cant understand y higher ranking ppl have to jus do paperwrk? Does the law says that higher ranking dudes cat help out in dirtywork? bias cocksters.

Morning madness ~

wa.. my camp mad one early morning 545 call usgo take ippt ... crazy ... sianz.. nowadays like very boring... nth to do de.. hope friday come faster =] got date wif fionn !! she gonna treat me eat wor !! haha

Fri, sat, sun.

=X

DOMO ~ Dreams Of Mirror Online

Hmm found a new game to play wif my frens.. its still on closed beta so hope theres peeps playing too =]

Join us

The Virtual World ~

today i had a flashback, from the time i was a hardcore gaming madman. reminds me of the days where i would go pawning players around the world in Diablo 2™ . man this urge is coming back to me. Peeps out there, if u have any nice mmorpg games to introduce, feel free to.


Bored of dota, as in owning pub nubs. I learn games fast so if its a new mmorpg it woul be even better =D

Mon blues ~

boring day... nth to do.. everyone working zzz guess i'll go find fionn for lunch then =]

Day of courage ~

Today, i did sumthing that i nv imagine i would do in my whole life.

I gathered my wimpy courage, and, holded her hands.

She shooked off my hand lightly and said, " I dun wan to be a burden, its not fair to u."



Girl, no matter wat, i will be by ur side. Nv will i leave u, abandon u, or betray u. All i ask is, a chance.







Enuf wif the emo.. lets get on wif my day lol !! today its the 21km AHM !!! from suntec run to east coast. MADNESS !! then, went to chinatown to eat wif jun rong, joseph, GUAN TAT, phang and his gf. had a bowl of century egg congee =]

went back home on jun rong's bike. dota'ed till 4 plus and get rdy for my date wif fionn. but the sky not helping >.< rained whole day !! met up wif her at paragon and we had soup spoon for dinner =d then we went to window shop at taka. she saw this LV bag and fell in love wif it . it really was a nice bag but they had no more stock =\ something happened and blah blah blah (read above mentioned) then we went to see Love Guru !! its hilarous !!! great show =p


waited for her bus to come b4 i come home and.. end of blog.

AHM ~

sianz tml is my 21km run... so long zzz wan me die sia... bo bian.. camp say must book in to have 7 hours of slp... like that my week end kena burn liao... stupid sia >.<

Rainy Sun ~

zzz Its sunday and today keep rain rain rain....

today went to shop at far east ~ bought a tee from Dusty, and then we went to cine to play pool. after which we went to volta o buy a polo-tee, and wei neng bought a shirt again..

its dinner time so we went to Plaza Singapura to eat ICHIBAN SUSHI !!! YES ITS ICHIBAN SUSHI !!! i ordered the FAMOUS HOTATE CHEESE YAKI again !!!!

Shopping Spree ! Mega Deals ~

Today was a fun day shopping at vivo city =-] had a date wif fionn, we went to see "meet dave" haha its was a supa funny movie !! Had haagen daz ice creams !!! accompanied her to shop around vivo...

I SCREAM FOR ICE CREAMS !!! =]

then we shopped at pedro and best denki, i bought a belt and new camera !!! MEGA CHEAP DEAL !! Best denki is selling this camera for less then 250!! wif a free 2g mmc, screen protector, screen cleaning kit. Worth or not, u decide.

Its FRIDAY !!! ~

Wah finally can book liao.. supa sianz !!! Booking out today means that loser haven admit himself out lor =\

got a ride from my colleague's bike.. jus got home.. think i'll rest awhile b4 going out ba =]

Shopping Sun ~

Went to suntec to meet a online seller for a Head Porter strap. then we went to eat. eat till full le we walked to sebas shop, and god !! every shop he worked at closes down LOL.. saw mabeline there but sebas say she doesnt know who Rodney is. (My brother) I called my rod and told him h dun believe haha.. then after that we went to haji lane to shop =D

And this is Wei neng =X Anyone interested? Single and available.

Cosy Sat ~

Yesterday went to causeway point to find Fionn, wah so far sia.. i actually took 1 hour to reach there leh >.<

Then we went to eat Ichiban sushi !!! wah, i tell.. the food is SUPA nice !! I higly recommend the Hotate Cheese, its a dish of scallops filled wif melted cheeses !!! OMG the taste is GODLY !!! I kena owned on the spot i tell u. Then we went to Mac to use my laptop. Fionn very long didnt use com le so i purposely brought my laptop jus for her =D then i waited for her to finish work and accompany her home.

after sending her i went to cine to find tian shi, not the angel la.. this tian shi too fat, cant fly !! HEE =X boring sia... everyday i play pool till abit sianz... think can go there be regular liao LOL

Boring week ~

wah sian... jus book out from camp.. cant book out the last whole wk cos of some stupid fucker. That fucker go steal our branch funds then end up have to call in SiB . zzz now we onli can book out on fri and must book in by sun night sia !!! FUCK U BLOODY IDIOT !!!

so bored nth to do sia... nvm its dota nite !!!

frenster horoscope, true or false ~

happen to came to this page where it gives horoscopes. this is wat i found...


The Bottom Line

If a pal makes a big deal about doing you a favor, tell 'em thanks -- but no thanks.

In Detail

A friend is acting like they are doing you a favor by inviting you along somewhere -- they seem intent on making you feel unwelcome, and it's working. There is some mean game playing going on here, and the only way you can get out of it is to say 'no.' Even if you really want to go, it's just not worth it if you have to feel in debt to them the entire time. When a friend starts making you feel bad about yourself, it's time to rethink whether or not they should be your friend.

Frens? nah, I'm jus a stupid fat tree. Watch my belly shake ~

In this world, we often watch dramas showing how the best of frens can end up backstabbing each other. well i finally get to experience this rare lifetime scene. how ridiculously laughable i am, thinking that if i treat my frens wif sincerity then they will treat me the same as well. truth is, we all are jus too naive.

i nv tot i was this tiny in their hearts, not to mention they only treat me as a casual fren. if there were anything i dun like about them, i'm sure i would tell them. y cant others do the same? or simply becos gossipping or bad-mouthing ppl behind their back gives more satisfaction?

i know i'm fucking fat, fucking irritating, fucking short, fucking ugly, dunno how to dance like u guys, dunno how to flirt like u guys, fucking laughable, fucking stupid, fucking dumb and fucking annoying. since i'm so lousy and weak, its better that i leave ur group so u guys wont need to have me troubling u guys anymore.

no ones perfect, yet neither anyone is better then the other. now that i'm no longer part of the gang, please dun spend too much on celebrations. cos no one is able to help out wif the spending anymore.

i'm jus glad that i treated u guys as best frens in my memories.



Cheers to the worlds greatest fool.

High living shits~

wtf man ~~

my stupid camera needs 300 bucks to repair !!!! dun think am repairing liao... Jus came back from camp, feel super slpy sia... last night mahjong till 415am lol. later still need go hdb see got flats anot..

time to dota !!

Boring sunday ~

wah today super boring sia !!

went to Penisular to send my camera for repair. then saw vannessa lol. then we tgt went to marina square to walk walk lor. after wei neng me and vannessa went to her bf shop to pick up wei neng's bag.

then she stay there, me and wei neng went to town find wei kang. he closed shop we went to cine to makan. wei kang went home then me and wei neng go play pool AGAIN !!! lol

love the pool.

Slacking at town ~

wah jus came back from town and its alrdy 4 am in the morning !!!! lol reminds me of gwen's "4am in the morning " song...

went to town to find the stupid wei kang who took my phone back home, zzz wat a dumb ass LOL. long story anyway. then went to wheelock wif wei neng and ts to makan sakae. eat halfway then vannessa arrived wif her cousin. lol we eat alot sia.

after that we went to vannessa's bf shop at chinatown. His shop is selling tee from subcrew, bags from head porter and stuff, caps etc.. then wanted to go back cine see movie but the slots left are like from 11pm onwards sia. cant watch cos vannessa got probation from her parents LOL, need reach home by 12 haha. so we went up and play pool. wei kang joined us later on jus to lose haha.

sianz now that my camera spoilt.. need to go repair sia... dunno will exp anot... argh..

~sick..

Friday, wake up, sick.

end of blog.

School gathering 2008 July

today is jus so COOL man !! met up wif wei neng at bugis this afternoon to walk walk. went to haji lane and wei neng bought a tee. not bad and quite worth, then which after we went to suntec

swensen to meet up wif caitlin.

the host stupid sia !!! told us to meet up at 6 yet she came at 630 !!!! wth zz . but in the end everyone cam =] so still not bad la

to my surprise it was jackie's birthday !! sang a song for him lol then after that we went to east coast to slack... then the number was reduced to half zzzzz. some went home and some went to eat supper lol. after which we went to k-box at cineleisure, at this point of time while blogging.. i have basically no voice at all lol

wat a day... so tiring lol.

HaPpY BiRtHdAy to YUJI !!!

Happy birthday YUJI !!!! hey sry man i cant make it to ur party but hey, u must come to my birthday chalet !! hope ur wishes will come true (one onli hor) and may God's grace embrace u. =]

Today went out wif wei neng and vannessa. went to see "Red Cliff". not bad la the movie, quite hilarious.. then went to find wei kang and went to cineleisure to play pool.. they loser one sia.. keep play cheat de.. no sportsmanship at all zzz.

saw jessica while loitering at cheers, she still wear funny clothes lol ! finally it was time to end the day, i went to fetch aloy from yuji's party to get back my camera for tml's sch gathering =] hmm still no peeps from the internet who can help me on blogging. oh well, thinking of getting my ex-sch frens to teach me then.

PS: I miss you when I'm sad, I miss you when i'm bored, I miss you when i'm lonely.. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy !!

Days goes by

hmm could it be that my blog is very new so theres not much ppl looking at it? currently still looking for peeps to teach me on blogging.

yesterday was a great day, went out wif a special girl i liked. we went for movies, ate at burger king etc. then she went off to St James. man, i jus wish i was a little more brave to at least try to hold her hands? it seems nowadays singaporeans like clubbing alot. cant understand them. i'm jus too weird lol.

well if theres anyone who could help me wif my blog, plz contact me at ricksonsin@hotmail.com.

Strictly blogging stuff.

A boy's blog.

I have always wonder why do ppl blog, well to know that myself I have to blog. So here i am !

lol, guess i'm jus a lonely boy trying to grab attention. There are always time u know u want to do something which prob ppl might laugh at u. Trust me, jus do it. Follow your heart or you'll regret not having the job done at the end of the day.

As I'm starting out.. i really appreciate if peeps out there could give me a tip or 2 on how to make a better blog =]

You can contact [The Boy] at ricksonsin@hotmail.com